he's back,
again..
here to haunt me,
once again.
he's back.
i can hear him!
footsteps:
running up my spine.
goosebumps:
masking away
his shadows.
making his way
up to my heart,
punching!
kicking!
till it rips apart.
shutting off my brain.
again,
unable to focus.
and he sits,
for a few minutes,
at the dark corners
of me.
laughing,
hysterically!
at how weak i am.
and without a pulse,
not even a signal,
he starts..
jumping!
and shaking!
and screaming!
whispering.
and he screams!
again.
and again.
and again!
pause!
silent, shaky pause.
pulling the trigger.
pushing the knife.
he'd done it,
again.
he'd won,
again.
i didn't fight,
again.
he wants me.
and i want to come,
with him.
so he can leave me.
alone..
and dead.

*-djs