Could I be
Sitting here where cold lightning strikes twice
In the same place
Cyclical thoughts repeat
Am I here again?
A flash of intention
To awaken
But I was listening to whispers
And they've disappeared
So nevermind, I'll just scream
To drown out the ego
Could I be
Ignoring my Self?
And fading?
I can't move
And I can't remember
Suffocating in two
Realities
This dissonance is everything
Putting me together
Tearing me anew
I wish I would disintegrate
But I am too strong
Yet weak enough to deteriorate
If this wind wasn't so hollow
I'd believe in something
Infinite immortal
But the awareness is totalled
It has taken me away
Memorial to this soul
An empty cup
I'll try again, forever
I'll never give up
You won't be totally forgotten
Just sorely missed
As if you were never there
I'm sorry
This one-way rubber band has pulled me back
Deep down into the well of pain I thought I filled
If only I could let go
I would pierce right through these walls of stone
I created
And become the dream I imagined I'd be
To mend this ache of dissonance
So consistent
This need