I hate my life right now
feels like it's upside down
the inside of my stomach
feels like the remains of a town
that got hit by a tornado
all the remains on the ground
the thoughts the feelings the memories
all tied together
inside of me
pain subsided
yet still i bleed
slowly
thoroughly
in need of anti freeze
to keep my heart from freezing
i get a little itch to get a quick fix
get out of the house
meet a new *****
but every time i meet one
i think about the old one
with make up on
she did me so wrong
i want to forgive but i can't really do it
there's something inside me
that says don't do it
i imagine a time in which i get revenge
but the best damage i can do
is with my mighty pen
no words, thoughts, ****** expressions, feelings
can do her any harm
so i'll get back to healing
when they ask me the same question
about my emotions
how i'm doing
i give them the same answer
i'm dealing
it's hard but i'm living
my work, my heart, my passion
my potential is the ceiling
but it's still there
that feeling