Crazy thoughts in a loud mind
Calm and collected on the outside
Fear of losing it all thankful for everything
Everything earned not given
Praying to keep sane strange pain
Pushed others away to heal
Not sure how to act
Remember for being wild
Use to speak without thinking
Now thinking too much not able to speak
Heart means well things go wrong
Love too much none in return
Cared so much smothering out life
Running out of ideas need to live more