Today I feel this urge
To feel the pain
I once battled
To keep in

I'm aching to bleed
Just to know I'm alive
So that I can feel
My heart beat
Like it once did

Rush of adrenaline
I am seeking again
Pain, my former best friend
I am seeking you again
Give me the thrill
Oh, if only
There was a happy pill
That I could consume
To make the bad night fade
As I fall into a deep sleep
Dreaming broken dreams

Save me before I fall
Into bad habits again
I don't want to bleed
I only want to feel
Real.