The Hatred I Feel is Caused Be me.
Trapped alone because I don't let anybody see.  
I Lie to myself to pretend this isn't real.
Embarrassed and guilt ridden hoping with time this will heal.
All I want is to make you proud.
Secrets hidden away I will never be able to speak out loud.
I am trying to change to become a better man.
Growing up with big dreams this was never part of the plan.
now all keep on thinking I have ran out of time.
the feeling is this life is no longer mine.