there was so much i wished for
so much i tried to manifest
thought i knew what i wanted
thought i knew what was best
but on the other side of this river
as i watch the wreckage float away
i realize i was never gonna live out that dream
or see a perfect day
not with you
and that's not to be mean
its just the truth
i ignored blatantly
because i wanted it to be you
everything i could imagine
wanted you to color my skies
be the perfect distraction
but fate knew that couldn't be
so she struck the thought down
i was bitter at first
but i'm gratfeul now