i've pushed so far
i've worked so hard
but i'm only
2 feet from start
i grit my teeth
burn my feet
only just to
face defeat

tell me what i'm doing wrong
make it easy for me
i don't understand anything anymore
i don't see what everyone else sees

i feel sick all the time
i hate my life
i wake up in the middle of the night
to hold myself and cry

there's nothing i can do
i'm holed up in this room
i hate myself for loving you
all it does is hurt you too

i never wanted this
never wanted to miss
you but its our predicament
i'm sorry i that I forget

i'm sorry i didn't love you when
you were here my friend
regret crawls up my suit of skin
the memories creep up again