there's no wind in sight
the lightning is warm

I'm so alone
not one ghost in this house to be scared of

teary windows
trying to ***** out all the sadness

haven't this way in a long time
feeling brave and courageous

next day
it's all down the drain

I'm too scared to get out of bed
it'll be all over once I open my eyes

I keep asking for anything for someone
all my demons are tired of me

not one angel cares about me
the gods have a look of regret when they see me

haven't felt like this in a long time
I'm scratching down my leg
does it count as self harm
if I didn't bleed

this rain feels so lost
if I get bad news I'll self destruct

running into the months closed off pool
with murky water
I will swallow my fears

I knew
I haven't felt this way in a long time