My boyfriend has two cardigans Exactly the same softness, dark grey, cold zip and asymmetric cut I'm wearing one, my legs curled beneath the other Frustratingly cold on the sofa when the stagnant bedroom air was near suffocating moments before My eyes are heavy, tired, blurry with sleep, alert thanks to anxiety Brain on a loop of words and feelings and fears Mostly desperation to not disturb his sleep and a break in the summer heat