these days without a dad are strange in ways I wish I cared more about things are suddenly easy to let go of when you are tired and you finally loosen your grip, an ode to visceral reactions things are simple to never need back if nothing seems real in the first place it's never even that deep just that picturing a future seems more like getting hopes up there is an important distinction to be separate from "looking forward to something" life grows disheartened when these two are confused used too closely to tell is this realism? or a ****** distraction from the fact that I wouldn't mind dying