stimulated
by the manipulation
wasted my patience
my feelings vegetative
don't think no more
than i have to
when i can
i avoid you
cause you make my brain hurt
and my heart feels punished
for too long i believed
this was something it wasn't
no i don't wanna talk
or confide about my pain
can't trust you with anything
you've made me afraid
to be vulnerable
to release what's in my mind
scared to let you in again
and find myself locked outside