paralyzed
in my uselessness
holding my heart
wondering what to do with it
throw it overboard
and let it sink to the trenches
or soak in gasoline
and burn it like the witches
should i throw it at walls
till it finally stops bleeding
hold my breathe as long as i can
till it stops beating
staring at this futile object
in terror and disgust
i need to get it away from me
before it gives me up