In the backseat of your Audi, the three o clock shadow slants across your face like a threat, makes you look dangerous. Makes you look interesting. So what do you do? I tell you I write. What does that mean? It means walking into a crowd and getting lost in your head. It means finding loose change in your heart. Means the world is your dysfunctional, perpetually disappointed, ailing mother. Means this isn't going to last.