there is a certain pain in realizing- your lover wouldn't risk a midnight stroll to keep with seeing you. wouldn't go above or beyond to show her love. it hurts to have the quaint typicalities of love become unlikely, suffocated in calculation- 'work tomorrow, sleep soon. no walk.' suffocated in fear- 'possibly a bear. maybe a cougar. no walk.' everything a second thought of,
'that's why not.'
*'that's why not.'
You've turned off your phone. I miss you. I spontaneously suggest something- you don't feel like it. I plan something- you don't show up.
you always make sure you're safe inside your comfort zone and it worries me.