Jul 2020
What now... I didn't die...
Just sitting inside my mind,
I died inside.
Hitting my blunt in what seemed to be a session of an endless cry, Instead of what I wish was an everlasting high.
He hurt me again.
Words more than any..
Swords stabbing me, it's TOO many.
More than fkn PLENTY.
Someone pass me the Henny.
Wish I would of only fell in love with the feti.
I snapped.
Not in half ....breaking fast.
In pieces, immediately I turned into ash, **** that, more like your favorite huge glass, mirror in a million pieces
Nothing but fkn GLASS.
He knew that was my vice, my devil in it's flask.
It was all too fast.
Might as well just put me in my newly givin cask...
I tried to grab his face with tears in my eyes...to beg to know how he could accuse me of going back to the drug that almost literally killed me inside. I wanted to just shake him....
anger filled me.
All bullshiiiii aside.
The drug that almost took me from my son. THAT killed me inside.
Instead my hands went for his throat Like a gun..just wanted him to dry up n shrivel as a dead flower does underneath the rising sun.
Riding the wave, I'm afloat, I am the black ****** goat, head over water let me fukn float.
Socks turning blue, will I really stay afloat?
I didn't even know I could cry like that anymore..didn't think I could feel that anger anymore...didnt know there was any left...guess some was kept.
Only I am left....
Alone, accused, abused by the words you don't wanna hear from the one person you thought was "it" for you.
My whole life I've had this bad habit of wanting to run ...
A GO GETTER.
I'm fearless.. but to run from my sorrow...possible, but
never.
I'm too clever.
Ready to make nobody my forever🖤
Lifes a lesson and I'm on the highest ****** level, for now I'll put away the shovel, won't stoop to that fkn level.
This feeling feels like home...
I wish my pain could come,
like phone ****** home..
sorry pain you can't come.
Let's go Zbby...
I think it's time to overcome.
I'm done. You know who you are..
You had your fun, now it's my turn to point my fkn 4000 Dolla gun.
Just sitting inside my mind,
I died inside.
Hitting my blunt in what seemed to be a session of an endless cry, Instead of what I wish was an everlasting high.
He hurt me again.
Words more than any..
Swords stabbing me, it's TOO many.
More than fkn PLENTY.
Someone pass me the Henny.
Wish I would of only fell in love with the feti.
I snapped.
Not in half ....breaking fast.
In pieces, immediately I turned into ash, **** that, more like your favorite huge glass, mirror in a million pieces
Nothing but fkn GLASS.
He knew that was my vice, my devil in it's flask.
It was all too fast.
Might as well just put me in my newly givin cask...
I tried to grab his face with tears in my eyes...to beg to know how he could accuse me of going back to the drug that almost literally killed me inside. I wanted to just shake him....
anger filled me.
All bullshiiiii aside.
The drug that almost took me from my son. THAT killed me inside.
Instead my hands went for his throat Like a gun..just wanted him to dry up n shrivel as a dead flower does underneath the rising sun.
Riding the wave, I'm afloat, I am the black ****** goat, head over water let me fukn float.
Socks turning blue, will I really stay afloat?
I didn't even know I could cry like that anymore..didn't think I could feel that anger anymore...didnt know there was any left...guess some was kept.
Only I am left....
Alone, accused, abused by the words you don't wanna hear from the one person you thought was "it" for you.
My whole life I've had this bad habit of wanting to run ...
A GO GETTER.
I'm fearless.. but to run from my sorrow...possible, but
never.
I'm too clever.
Ready to make nobody my forever🖤
Lifes a lesson and I'm on the highest ****** level, for now I'll put away the shovel, won't stoop to that fkn level.
This feeling feels like home...
I wish my pain could come,
like phone ****** home..
sorry pain you can't come.
Let's go Zbby...
I think it's time to overcome.
I'm done. You know who you are..
You had your fun, now it's my turn to point my fkn 4000 Dolla gun.
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