I wish I could give you much more- Than my mouth's every empty sound; Words; Like long abandoned shell homes. More than the mere reality of being around.
I wish I could give you more- Than my body; physical presence. Than my touch and warm embrace- Heated in the lust of every past instance.
I wish I could give you more- Than gifts; my time and attention. My voice, support, smiles and laughter. Wish I'd give you my heart's pure affection.
I wish you knew me way before- The loss of every ounce of love I sought. Before the space between spaces filled me, Before the scent of love was eternally forgot.
See, every failed fairy tale- Robbed my love of its mass; Left my heart cold, unloving. Empty, like a sand less hourglass.
Every shattered future- Taught me how not to love; To cherish only what's left over, Fading innocence; everything I have.
Every end of a new beginning- Curved a beast out of my soul; A sweet, charming, beautiful beast. Opposite of what you think you know.
I wish you knew me before- I could smile and say I love you- As I whisper praises to the next girl; Of last night, in bed, how she was beautiful.
I wish you knew me before- I could hug and hold you tight- With the very warm arms that will- Passionately caress your friend at night.
I wish you knew me before- I knew a forever that comes and goes; Before the bits of hurt and nurtured lusts; Before I my pain was of a like nobody knows.
I wish you knew me before- The pieces of my broken heart- Spread through my thick, vast past. So I could love you, whole and not in part.
I really wish you knew me before- My tears massed into this smiley mask- That stuck to my visage. Before being nice- Was merely my poker face, and not a willful task.
But most importantly⦠I wish you will teach me- To love you with the void space where my heart was; To say I love you in silence; with every beat of our heart; To be one with you; to love with my rights and my flaws.