And in the thick of the dark night blanketing over us, as I laid there next to him, he said “I can usually always tell” “with this person I was a little confused, with this other person I was also a little confused, usually there is always some moment where I can tell, but with you I can see no difference, no confusion” Those words sat in my chest and permeated through me, like hot Texas heat taking up every inch of your body, baking.