I'm sick of these endless nights face down in pools of sweat
And waking up only to have my head full of regret
I had to check my phone to made sure I hit "send"
And to no surprise, there's no reply again

It happened again, I placed my bets
You know I was all in
A promise of escape from the way things had always been
So why am I lower than where I have began?

What am I hoping for, if it's not you?
I've spent all of my time and money
Trying to find something to distract me

I'm over starving myself just to feel some type of control
And doing trifle things just to fit the mold
So why stop now when I still have some control?
I just want something to make me whole
Don't leave me standing out here in the cold

The pain always comes back in the morning
Again, I'm living just trying to ignore it