out of pure desperation
i reached for the window
and opened it to beg the stars
for help. for rescue

then
i counted

the things i could see
until my faded vision cleared

the things i could hear
until the raging voices quieted

the things i could feel
until the endless shaking ceased

i lied there forever
with freshly dried tears on my face
still breathing heavy from the
pain i was drowning in

23.04.20