I promised not to cry the next time I turned my back on you.
But I couldn't help it.
I broke my heart in a million pieces and left them behind.
Am aching to watch your smile,
your beautiful innocent smile.
I miss the sound of your voice,
That maniacal laugh only you have.
The space where you lay just a moment ago is smooth and clear.
No trace of you remains.
You were trying so hard to be strong but instead I saw the pain;
Buried beneath a false facade of bravado and charisma.
You said it was ok but I saw the aching loneliness and fear.
It hurts so much to let you go but I know it has to be done.
I hope some day you will understand because I don't.