I keep telling myself I'm fine...
that you don't affect my decisions...
anymore..
because there was a time...
I'd do anything...
for you...
everything...
I couldn't even breathe...
I had your ring in my pocket the day you wanted to leave...
You had my heart in your pocket when you walked out of my life...
I was already damaged before You...
You know thanks to what i knew of life...
my fragile shell was only egg like..
and yours was glad wrapped...
impossible to break easy to change...
but easily transparent...
But that one crack destroyed my yoke...
That one sin....
Burnt my hope..
.and it was blackened...
because I started jumping into ocean after ocean trying to find the fountain of youth...
fountain of you...
But every ocean had no water that could quench me like you did...
No woman had no aura that could love me so I hid...
Behind holograms of you...
Hoping they would shield my broken shell.
But everyone was just like you so they all held close the gun...
that would shoot me in the soul...
after all that I had done....
Now I'm just a zombie wandering around with no heart,
no heart...
I lost that warm blooded part...
Now I'm just in search of brains...
because hopefully a smart woman won't live connected to her hearts chains...
And she'll see How much it means to say I love you
because she'll know the definition,
instead of her own missing hearts blinded decisions....