you don't want me to be a part of your family
it shows in the way you disclude me
don't act like i chose to leave
a child can not decide to pack up their things
you showed that i was not part of your home
made me to feel alone
the sight of you makes me want to implode
didn't ask to be disowned

i tried to think of what i did
to make you hate me so much
i was only just a kid
you decided that i didn't need love
i cried at night
before i even turned nine
i thought if i should die
before i knew the word suicide
because i thought
i hurt you by being alive
you're a monster
i'm stuck with for life