People always ask what it was about him that made me keep going back. Honestly, I couldn’t even give myself any good reason why, maybe one being I thought I really loved him. This question often gets brought up and they always end it with “I don’t understand” or “I just don’t get it”. I explain it like this. You know when you love something so much you learn to hate it, but as much as you hate it you feel like you can’t get rid of it because that’s what’s so normal in your life and if it’s gone you’ll have nothing else.