Lately
I’ve been feeling
Sideways
A black hole
Puncturing
My chest
Devoid of
Emotion
And
Thought
Only the pain
Leaking out of me

I am wearing
A smiling
Japanese mask
With floral
Red markings
Painted on
The Surface
An everlasting
j o y

A war is fought
Within myself
Every night
I try to sleep.
I don’t know
How long this
Will last.
Years and
Centuries and
Forever

I stay awake
Til sunrise
Water
My dying plants
And start
Another day
Exactly the same
As before
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
I can’t wait
To escape
This place.
I can't wait
For the future.