God ******* ****** i hate this and i hate you  because you just had to show up and be pwrfect and now i feel so bad because you are a whole person and Im nobody. Like actually nobody. As in i can only kinda sorta remeber being alive for the majotity of my life. Im sooo ****** up you dont need this snd im sorry. I dont evrn have a personality im just static pretending yo be a person snd you dont deserve that you deserve a oerson who csn have feelings other than anger and numbness you deservr to be loved and im sorry