I feel like something has to change with him I feel good and without is just the same but i couldn’t think of him not apart of my life no matter as a friend or something more I would never cut ties For so many reasons I could tell you why I’ve gotten my closure and i’ve evolved but with him I am always involved
going back to him is a constant theme a game played between just you and me I know of the reality of what is happening as I’ve been told it so much something has to give a change an evolution I know nobody quite gets the situation between you and I we barely even know I know what i got myself into content with kisses and cuddles but in my mind and heart of hearts I know something has to give
In the new year I’ll not search but be open to something new I believe somebody can love me just as much as you I tried this once before and was burned turning me back to you, my love who I couldn’t shake but deep inside I know what's right time to try again not think of you in that way as much as I did only the new year will tell be gentle and be fair oh new year may all be well
the first poem I ever wrote in the new year, one of the most personal, and by far the longest