~ Time pasted like the breath of one sky into the next For everyday in every hour we had lived our death Now I see time is a dream And all the things you said keep running in my head ~
There is a story inside of me It sings in a velvet rich voice that is heard across the eleven skies Of order and chaos and how Death had made its home inside of me It screamed and it begged to be liberated But I tamed that wild beast And now I no longer fear death It is my guest It is my friend
And I wish my words could deliver you from fear And I wish my words could deliver you to paradise And I wish I could describe just how simple this paradox is or was or never really was And if you could only understand the sacrifice I had made to be able to enter this metaphysical place with such grace
And lately it seems in silent nights when I cannot sleep in the mirror I look at myself and ask the same question Over and over Do you see what I see? Do you? And I know you do because just like you I see everything too But can you feel everything? Or hear everything like I do? If you could would you shatter like I did? Your broken pieces cutting broken pieces of me A million shards stealing my reflection upon reflection
Who have I become now? Have I become infinite? Have I become algorithmic? Or am I still just another statistic? And how long will it take for me to catch myself?
Will I wander forever in search Lost in this fast paced abyss Am I a sleeping princess waiting for a charmed kiss A kiss on the lips that will bleed your name Screaming in vain in the glittering ghettos that delivered social pain
My memories of you were written in the hands of Heaven I recorded the stories you told to the last syllable in time And that was the last time I did ever hear from you Hidden in the eloquent smoke and shadows At the edge of the world where the barricades of Heaven fell And only in the darkness is the truth found