I am trying so hard to not let you let this be a toxic relationship.
Should not be my responsibility
I don't want to tug-of-war over weather I should just be your girlfriend or if I should be your mother
You don't need another mother You have the right to do what you want when you want Because you're an adult
But I can not let you use me As an excuse to let yourself go
I can not let you Let this relationship become toxic
I wish that I could And I've honestly tried But for me to just watch you ignore your priorities in order to spend time with me or goof off next to me If I could do that if I could just let you do that That would mean I did not love you
Because for me Love is complete care for the other person love means I care about your mental health and your sleep schedule and your grades and your work because love to me means that every aspect of your health and well-being is my top priority
So as much as I want to let you worry about yourself in your own time I can't!
I can't talk to you at 11:30 p.m. when you have an essay due at midnight
I can't sit next to you while we study if I know you'll spend that whole time trying to get my attention
I can't let you sleep over when I watch you play on your phone for the two hours we set aside for studying and you have a test tomorrow
Because I can't love you And not care for you...
If what you want Is a relationship that will distract you from all of your other priorities You should be with someone else
You should not date me I can not give that to you I can not And I will not Be a part of a toxic relationship Whether it is toxic to me or to you.
The kind of relationship I can have is one where we help each other get through our day and get through our tasks and when the day is over we can escape with each other -to each other- to our own little world