I don't like crying in front of you
because it makes me
feel weak.

Even though all my feelings
and bones
are breaking
just like my fragile heart,
I don't want you to
know.
I don't want you to see me
break down and
crumble.

Why?

Because I know
you deserve someone
stronger,
better than I am.
Someone better-suited
that can deal with her emotions
instead of crying all the time.

You don't want to see
my blotchy pink cheeks
or my tears as they fall down
my hot neck.
You don't want to see
my eyes all sullen
and droopy,
or my fingers
tremble.

You deserve
so much better

than just me.

a.m.