I had to **** us
if I hadn't we
would have suffocated
underneath our masks

I wish I loved you
how I should have
you were everything
I wanted to want

I wish I was ready
for everything you gave me
you were the best I could dream of
but I guess I don't want perfect

I want horrible pain
I want ecstasy and passion
I want a gin swirling romance
scented with cigarette smoke

Or maybe I should be alone
I don't understand how
love works since
I couldn't feel how you felt

I'm sorry my first love
You changed me, you made me
you broke me, you kissed me
with a passion that scared me lifeless