Have you ever heard a "no"
reverberate in unison?
It echoes in your bones,
your blood,
your heart,
remains shaken.

When you start to count the digits,
allotted on your palms.
You want to be a destination,
Instead of "just along".

The first had buttered words,
candied actions and giving hands,
you wanted to fall on something sweet
but you had a bitter land.

The second blew you wishes,
you cupped and made them yours
but,
they scattered in the wind,
and never did return.

The third offered escape,
Until the sun went down,
You danced,
And rose, hips dipped and kissed,
But he left before,
The dawn could yawn.

The fourth was running water,
an expected steady stream.
but he'd gush all his emotions
but build a dam around feelings.

The fifth was hope embodied,
to not be all the same.
The fifth suggested promise
that maybe,
they wouldn't walk away.

But he did.
They all did.
Suddenly,
Unexpected
Triumphant "no"

That can't help but play,
Inside my brain.
Over and over.
Again and again