I look at myself in the mirror and feel ashamed. I look at myself in the mirror and wonder why I'm so ashamed.
I talk loudly and write in desperation, trying to drown out the shame.
Trying to drown it out before it drowns me.
I don't know if I'd ever commit suicide, seeing as I'm going to die anyway. I call it 'inexplicable' because I have no rational reason to feel the way I do. My life is good. Amazing, really. If anyone has suggestions on how to deal with all this, it would be much appreciated.