i never know what you want
it’s not that i won’t, i can’t
but the look in your eyes tells
me i should know quite very well

pour your love on me one day
poison me after, like child’s play
affirm my choice, agree with my life
say no to my voice, scream it with strife

spill out your thoughts, opinions and like
force them upon me, a fondue of your psyche
preach then a passage of hypocrisy sincere
that independent thinking is key, for sure

a wrinkled smile glued onto your face
turns to a storm of anger without a trace
you live on words muttered under my breath
but you’re deaf to my cries, my tears and my death

silence me for speaking out of turn
berate me for silence, “it’s like you never learn”
bring it on for closing the door,
and then suddenly, privacy is core

lose your voice shouting, and blame me for that
flood me with food, then whisper “you’re fat”
load me with gifts, complain that I’m messy
wish me to rest, label my phone “******”

treat me like ****, forget about it later
but you don’t realise, only you have amnesia
think you can solve everything with apologies
not this time, you can’t solve me

i never know what you want
it’s not that i can’t, i won’t
but the look in your eyes tells
me im about to go to hell