I don't know where my mind went. At the bus stop at 5am picking up trash and looking at envelopes. I step on the cracked pavement. Daddy is late today so the flies **** on the pickle. These words mean absolutely nothing. If only I had a spatula. Freezing now with an imminent snow storm. One day I'll get what i deserve. One day I'll look at a dead crow sqaushed in a truck wheel. one day you'll tell me to sleep so I don't hurt anymore. I'm the bad guy biting my tongue. I roll over and pray for dawn, I sit up in the gray moon telling her all my secrets because I no longer care if I can never forget