I've always been a **** up
The black sheep with no luck
I've always been afraid
of the things I didn't understand
I've always been the reject
the one with messed up hair
plain black kicks
I wore baggy jeans
miss-matching socks
I just didn't give a ****
I've always been invisible
until I opened my eyes
Realized I was the master
cloaked in disguise
I've always been quick with the pencil
The grammar, the words, the lines
My rhymes, an ever flowing river
Sick, sicker, than the eyes that reside
deep down, buried inside
And I always loved the boys
until I was used as a toy
Got the **** beat out of me
for no ******* reason
But I'm still here, still breathing
and you can't get rid of me.
I always thought I could fix my own problems
I used to drown the anger, the sorrow, in a bottle
***** bottle, pill bottle, rolled up joints of marijuana
All through my lungs, my veins, my brain
My liver, my stomach, torn up; Trust me, I know pain
I've always been the one with patience
You thought you could just crumble me up
throw me away
But I won't go away
I've always been the one who's waited
waited for the right moment
When I should have told you, just **** it
All the laughing, all the tears
Well I've waited, and waited
and my time is finally here
Those words didn't break me
Those words ******* made me
You can never take that away from me
Look at me now
I came, I saw
I conquered
I WON
© 2013 Christina Jackson