"I see you're smirking still." One eyebrow raised, an accusation of my happiness. She sees through me: an addict to the praise and thanks and jabs and jokes at my expense. My friends are certain I derive almost a ****** satisfaction from all this. It's true my heartbeat does betray the ghost of some attraction straining to exist. And just what is it that I want to do? To be with him, my teacher, scandal? Or just get attention? Or do I love school enough that it has really bubbled over?
Or maybe when it comes to it, I am still crawling from my father's clawing hands.