Mmm... darling... I want you close
Let me pull you in
Drink you in
And when I can't feel you anymore
I make you come closer
You can't resist
And I can't ask for help
So I'll just... inch myself
Closer.... closer... close
To the ed
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See if you'll notice
Send up flares
Write it in the sky

I'M IN PAIN
I NEED AIDE

And watch you ignore it
Am I too subtle?
I'm too cautious... too afraid
Perhaps there's something more drastic
Something clear.

When I joke about mortality
When I dissociate in front of you
When I clearly am not myself
When I can hardly move
When I rely on abrasive stimulants
When I lust wildly after your wine
When I admire my bleeding wrist

Will you notice me?

Because every sign you ignore
Every strange action you rationalize away

You lose me a bit more
You push me a bit further away
You make me step towards the edge
And eventually
I will take a step
And I won't return.