maybe if i wasn't so stupid,
maybe if i wasn't so blind,
maybe if i went back in time
and finally made up my mind...

maybe it wouldn't be like this,
because now I'm surrounded by what if's.
maybe it could have happened if i told you first,
that i was head over heels.
maybe, just maybe, i wouldn't have to find
out how this heartbreak feels.

but there's not enough time in the day
to tell you everything i'd say
in every possible way
if i had the chance.

even though i can not,
i will still take a shot
and try my best.

i'd tell you that i love you
and hope that it was enough.
and even if it wasn't
i'd pretend to be strong and tough.

i'd put on a brave face
and tell you that i care.
and remind you for the 1,000th time
that i would always be there.

i'd tell you everything you want to hear,
but the difference between she and i,
is that i would mean it
and i wouldn't leave you asking why.

i would mean everything that i'd have said,
and i wouldn't have this heart full of dread.
nor have these tears of red,
or have the only thought in my head
is that of it being better having me dead.