I’ve dealt with insecurity For quite a long time Some have said You have no reason to be insecure But If you can explain it’s irrationality Explain why I couldn’t look at myself In the mirror to wash my hands If I were in a public bathroom Explain why I truly believed that If a person said “you’re beautiful” to me I genuinely thought they pitied me And could see how insecure I was So they felt inclined to compliment me Explain why I could never try on jackets In a store And look at myself while other shoppers Passed by Without blushing profusely Explain why I would look away quickly After making eye contact Or when being first introduced to someone You see I’ve fought for my confidence In ways no one will truly understand I get overwhelmingly proud of myself For maintaining eye contact And going to shop for clothes Such mundane tasks That others don’t even think about Would silently mock me When I was in the dark However What’s touched me the most Is that I’ve learned to love myself The most When I was watching And listening for the fifth time To a little girl Nine years old to be exact Who pulled me into the piano room Of a church after service So she could show me Her progress on a song she’s learning You see She too has insecurity issues And struggles to see her beauty But that’s all I see When I look at her And it hurts me to see that she can’t see Her beauty Outwards and within Regardless of the compliments I give her And reminders I verbalize Week after week So I learned to love myself The most While I listened to her play And realized what it’s like To be on the other side To love someone who doesn’t love themselves To love someone who is insecure To love someone And understand that your voice Might not be enough for them To start loving themselves I look at her and wouldn’t change a thing And that is the way I began to look At myself And that is the way I began to love myself The most