I used to say
Every little thing
On my mind

I used to say
What I felt
When I felt it

And when I did
I was happy
But just for a moment

Until he tore me down
Until he said I was
“Crazy”

Until he accused me
Of being the one doing
Wrong

So when you say
Hurtful things
I know better

And when my heart races
Because I’m nervous
And scared

I just say I’m fine
Because otherwise
I am insecure
I am jealous
I am overthinking
I am too much
I am crazy

All I am is scared
Of losing you
And of losing myself
Too