I will never be able to unwrite my words,
unspeak the truth,
or unsee you.
I cannot help but overflow when you are nearby
happiness, anger, sadness spilling out of me
breaking down my walls.
I tell you more secrets than my own best friend
though they are ridiculous
and yet
you drive me mad
and stir up anger
so I lock myself away
and lash out

because I'm aware of how this works
because I know what this feels like
because I've done this before.