Today I don't feel like me
I'm not my usual happy self
I'm what I used to be
A sad soul hiding behind a happy smile
And I don't really know why
Nothing has really happened
To cause this
I mean I guess things are changing though
My friends are going away to college
I've graduated from high school
I guess maybe the real reason I feel this way
Is that I've been alone for far too long
I haven't seen my friends in months
I rarely see my boyfriend
But it's not like I wanted it to be this way
I just don't know when they are busy
And I don't want to bother them or get them in trouble at work
So I don't message them hoping that
When they weren't busy they'd message me
But they never do
So I sit here alone
Waiting on them
And I guess I've been waiting for so long
That I no longer feel happy
Being alone