sometimes i am granted the ability to see my parents as people not just the person i know them as but the person they are for a brief spare moment i am able to slip into their narrative slide behind their eyes and understand finally understand their drama and their intrigue their uniqueness and their plainness their angels and their demons and their late night separations i see who they are without me sometimes i am granted the ability to see a different version of reality i think i am omniscient but really what i am seeing is me
i had a strange moment of clarity and a stranger moment of fear.