I am my prison. Bars of failure upon bars of guilt. A cell of pain for a mind maimed.

Exposure to results of what I've built leaves me in paralysis frozen by my fears as I shed these tears. As if chosen by heart-hurt or forced against freewill to feel I am an inmate of fate..

My nights are long the nights are fights no light or insight alone in a blindside love killed at curbside I suffer inside where will I find home to buffer my hope I hate being alone don't let me be alone don't make me exist on my own a lonesome soul left unknown I gotta leave I need reprieve but where can I reside welcomed as I die inside?..

Stop the world let me off I didn't see this fate this pain this love this hate this gain these lies this me left alone insane its my life my bloodrain of heart down a drain above reality my soul lays slain..

My God..

Someone save me I rest to be my best as I fade into the past at last this is a hell turned worse a life cold-cursed to force me to try as my smiles grow old. But no Mom no Dad no pretty lullaby never was its a lie if I said I didn't wanna die.

I want my family back..
But it's impossible..

Help me..

I want to live as I fear to die..

I..

I have become a living lie...