I cannot breathe, the first time you ask me to leave
I cannot sleep, my knees keep trembling and I feel so weak

My stomach is pulling me in and out of my mind
I'm loosing myself in sickness and in fray
All I wanted is to be okay, till death rip me apart

I cannot close my eyes,
I'm melting inside
I kept hearing words, letters, numbers and voices
I needed time, space and the unknown

pull me back up
throw me out
throw me up
let me out
breathe in
and spiral me out
this needs to stop

I cannot breathe, the first time you ask me to leave
I was staring right back at you
staring deep into those eyes
so deep, that I cannot let this happen

How can I let this celestial beauty pass by
I want to dive deep inside those binary eyes
Explore the undiplomatic universe
I'll shoot myself into flare
Wander in every unknown galaxies
Watch the all the stars explode
all the black holes implode
Watch us our soul perform the ablation
I'll ride the Oort Cloud
Navigate every quadrant
Jump from planet to planet
And discover the hidden truth about those eyes
those psychotic and hypnotic eyes

Why would you not let me in? Inside those beautiful head of yours?
Now, I cannot breathe again, and again, and again and again
None of us can leave, Neither of us can escape

My body's starts shaking
My head is all over the place
I cannot breathe, when you ask me to leave

This hands keeps writing about a distant memory from the future

the words were:
"This is not happening,
this is only exist in your head,
those little voices are your worst enemy
and hey guest what?
your best friend.
They exist so you can live,
they creep at night to tell yout to sleep
But you're so afraid of them
that's why you can't sleep"

I got up went to the bathroom sink
splash some water on my face
I look in to the mirror
I stare at it
and for the longest time
I look at my face
and I said:
"You can leave"