Girl, what happened to us
What happened to trust
To growing old together until we turned to dust
Was there any love or was it all just lust
You left and all my heart does is turn to rust
Tell me how I’m supposed to evolve and adjust
What happened to the good old days
You remember all those games we would play
Staying up til 6 am staring at your face
Back when my mind wasn’t a horrifying place
Torn apart but I continue to keep breathing
Because until my family does I’m not leaving
Every night it’s a serious struggle to fall asleep
Gods looking down like “this soul I can’t keep”
I’m too broken to be put in a “perfect home”
So I sit here and I ponder in my own dome
About all the promises you made to me
About all the talks of us having a family
Should’ve knew it was all another lie
Went from scared of death to wanting to die
Told me you loved me and kept me warm
Softening up my heart for the future harm
I put down my walls and I let you come inside
It’s all over and I can’t count the nights I cried
I don’t hate you and I will never be able to
I just want you to watch all the greatness I do
I want you to see me grow from nothing at all
Your kids asking to buy all my stuff at the mall
Everywhere you go you’re gonna see me
I bet then you’d try to say it’s meant to be
I’m so sick and tired of being your last option
Scared of being hurt I approach with caution
I’m so numb this pain doesn’t hurt anymore
Don’t love you or hate you I just gotta ignore
You hurt me so bad way beyond repair
You were one of the only ones who were there
Now everything’s gone like you disappeared
Showed me that I have to be more self aware
Taught me how some people only take
Thank you for being my favorite mistake