every time i hit rock bottom someone digs a little deeper now these walls are too steep i’ve not enough grip slip and slip and slip and slip pickup and pack up perpetual bags start the process over with new characters and settings and expectations but the same feelings and probably meanings and letdowns and stained cheeks should i cut or burn this time? there’s one thing i control another: where shall i take these scissors to my forehead or my closest ties? that are holding me together but all too tight well is it weak to wither away at the hands of something i can’t see? my demons are only metaphors just like those bags and ties i used to think depression pains were the same but they’re as literal as can be not just tears but pangs broken hearts bleed faster and tarnished lungs take shallow breaths the past took a pocketknife to my skin carved and scooped me out and turned my body to a little tease that won’t give me the real mortal thing