How could anyone fall for someone so broken. So emotionally unwound and desolate. I don't understand how anyone could find Someone like that, so attractive. In many circumstances I've found myself to be Rather repulsive actually. I would advise you to run in the opposite Direction, but I would be even more miserable.. Maybe someday this could turn out to be easier, Eventually, when i put my pieces back together. Until then I hope I don't tear your heart to pieces, The way mine has been strewn.. As I lay here, dreaming of how things Could have been, should have been.. If I wasn't Always in the wrong place at the wrong time, Maybe then my life would make sense..however I can't go back, no matter how many times I Wish for it.. I just have to learn to deal with the Consequences of someone else's actions.. How terrible of a thing to deal with. It's hard to wake up knowing your life will never Be "normal" again like the others.. But you have to Deal, and that's what hurts the most.. Thinking "no one understands me" or would Ever want to live your life.. Someday maybe that Can be forgotten and and pushed behind a closed Door.. Doubtful but maybe, in a perfect world.. Not my world..