You texted me saying that if you called me tonight, it was because you were drinking and that was it, no other reason.
But I thought back to all of the times I called you drunk, and it wasn’t because I was bored.
You are your truest self when you become enveloped in liquor, and my truest self craved you and your trustest self needed me.
But I know things are different now, and I know if you call it won’t be like before, I tell myself this until the words sound funny.
I close my eyes and wish away the hole in my heart, but not before I turn my phone ringer all the way up.